Just Write

Hmmm...yep, looks like another hiatus! Just wanted to check in and let you all know that I really am coming back to writing! We've just been in birthday overdrive here for Eli's 4th today! So, now that things are about to settle back into normal (whatever that is), you can expect to see a little more around here! Just not tonight. :)

...depending on how you look at it. Yes, it happened, I dropped the ball on my writing project and took a five day hiatus. The funny thing is that I was quite surprised when I looked at the calendar and saw that it had only been five days. It feels like I haven't written in at least a week and half. Day 1 of my sebatacle found me enjoying a sunny afternoon in the backyard with my kids...notebook and pen in hand. I began writing, but after less than a paragraph stopped and thought, "I don't want to write." This thought wasn't qualified with a right now ; it felt more like an ever . This lead to four days of reevaluating. Why am I writing? What do I want to write? Do I really want to write? I really want to edit. I want to be a copy-editor. I really don't want to write my own stuff, I want to edit other peoples' stuff. And so on and so forth. About a week ago I finished reading A Million Miles for a Thousand Years by Donald Miller. Great read, by the way. ...

Once again, up too late! Ugh...what am I going to do with myself? I simply must become more disciplined in getting myself to bed at a reasonable hour...especially considering that sweet Abby has awoken at 4 a.m. the last two days! Oh, what am I doing?? On a happier note, today was actually a great day, especially considering my darling little alarm clock! Why so great, you ask? My Bible study! I am truly awe-struck by what a remarkable difference it is making in my life to start each day with the Lord! Hallelujah! Well, that's it for tonight...but I am excited to say that I have a few irons in the fire that I'll be sharing with you soon! And thank you for the prayers last night; they helped! Today's Haiku... I should be sleeping I'll regret this tomorrow I regret it now! Irons in the fire Excited to be writing What doors will open?

I've been convicted to delete my original posting for today. Based on the title, you can imagine why. In lieu of my "gumblings" I'm choosing to post something that I didn't write myself (the credit goes to Russell Kelfer), but feel the need tonight to ponder... You are who you are for a reason. You're part of an intricate plan. You're a precious and perfect unique design, Called God's special woman or man. You look like you look for a reason. Our God made no mistake. He knit you together within the womb. You're just what He wanted to make. The parents you had were the ones He chose, And no matter how you may feel, They were custom-designed with God's plan in mind, And they bear the Master's seal. No, that trauma you faced was not easy. And God wept that it hurt you so; But it was allowed to shape your heart So that into His likeness you'd grow. You are who you are for a reason, You've been formed by the Master's rod. You are who...

Loving what I live Each day is immensely blessed My God is so good Power in the morn I'm so grateful for His word The Lord uplifts me Sunlight lifts my soul Enlightens every moment Makes my life brighter Creative genius The flowers are poetic The Lord writes nature What shall I compose? I know not my direction Where will my pen lead? Challenge me, people! I just don't know what to write! Haiku's not my gift! Writing every day What gifts might I discover? On goes the challenge!

A few days ago I had an epiphany: writing is not the most important thing I do each day. Though you wouldn't know it from the quality of my writing, I have been placing this blog too high on my list of priorities. Though I often put it off to the day's very end, I do make sure it gets done. Even if it's only a few moments or a few words, I make absolutely certain that I write something on this blog every day. And while my project is indeed a healthy pursuit, it's position in my set of priorities is not. Writing is not the thing I need to make absolutely certain I do each day. That level of importance should be assigned first to my time with my Lord. Four weeks ago I began a wonderful new Bible study through Women's Ministries at my old church. It's the type of study wherein I meet weekly with a group of women (the same group each week); during the meeting there is time for discussion, instruction, and a video lesson from a renowned Bible teacher (remember me ra...

My son is the master procrastinator, especially when it comes to bedtime. When I have the energy and conviction, I put forth great effort to keep him moving in the direction of bed. Tonight, however, the engergy was lacking and I sent him to the bathroom to go potty and brush his teeth by himself. These are two tasks at which he is quite proficient, but twenty minutes later I finally went in after him. How much had he accomplished? He was washing his hands. He had neither brushed his teeth, nor used the toilet. I have no idea what he spent those twenty minutes doing. Nothing was destroyed, disheveled, or dirty...but neither was anything done. So, round and round we went with the reminders and the why's and the prodding and the stories and finally achieving the goal...or goals; I suppose when all was said and done both of us had achieved our goals: mine of getting Eli to bed, and his of drawing out the process as long as humanly possible. By the time he was climbing into bed I was f...

The letter of the day at preschool on Friday was Y. On the way home from school Eli and I had our own little "Who's on first" routine. "Mama, does why start with Y?" "No, but it does end with Y." "Why does why end with Y?" It's not often I find his "why" questions that amuzing!